So here's the truth:
I really don't have a plan.
I just figured I'd re-visit the topic of dating since I haven't mentioned it for quite a while. I haven't been in touch with eHarmony David since that initial "this isn't working" phone call and a few lingering texts about a month ago, but maybe that is for the best. At least for now.
So the world spins on and I continue to live a single and solitary life. I am blessed to be surrounded by family members that I love, and an amazing roommate who listens to me chitter chatter about nothing. Well, usually about anything related to the teens I associate with, but I'm sure she is sick of all that by now. I sometimes think I need to diversify my life a little-- spend time with new people. But I continue to move along, day after day, and fill my life with work, church, family, and roommate. I rarely just "hang out with friends" because I really don't have a lot of that kind of free time. But I am a happy little lady.
This is my dating plan!
When I become a real school counselor in 2-3 years, I will be working in a school setting with a variety of faculty, secretaries, and administrators. There is bound to be SOMEONE in that future school of mine who will observe me and think, "Hmmm! That "Miss Toone" is quite the active, fun, and friendly lady. I wonder who I know that I could set her up with." And then I will get to enjoy some rather awkward but maybe successful blind dates, and who knows where that will land me.
Or maybe I will be like the guidance counselor on "GLEE" who falls madly in love with the glee club teacher and they have their own little romantice adventure. However, I would prefer not to live their story because it's rather dramatic and a little scandalous. So scratch that idea.
My point is, though, I am not in any hurry. Although my teens tell me differently and remind me that the clock is ticking and I'm getting old... I feel calm, comfortable, and satisfied with my life right now. I can't force love, nor do I want to make all kinds of excuses and rationalizations to make it work. It needs to at least feel right to put all that effort into it. And I hope I feel that some day.
This is what I told my teen groupies:
"I love my life right now. I really do. I love my job. I love where I live and who I live with. I love my church family and church calling. I love my real family. I love my dog. I am happy! So it is going to take some amazingly awesome and fabulous man to make me want to leave all that I love right now. If it is real love and someone who I truly care about and want to be with... what I leave behind won't be such a factor anymore because I will be so excited about what lies ahead."
Awww... isn't that a happy thought? :)
And that is basically the thought that remains in my heart and mind. Whoever that future man is-- if he really exists-- is going to be pretty darn special. And then all of you will say to him, "Wow. You must be super amazing because Bree always said she wouldn't leave her happy life unless that man was absolutely the best thing that ever came into her life." So cheers to that mystery man.
In the mean time... life is good and I'm super happy. :)
Cutest post, ever! I love your quote to your teens, and the Glee picture. :) We love that you're a part of our lives, and I'm glad you're happy with yours! You do amazing things and impact so many people. It will take an amazing man to be worthy of you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy you're super happy! It really is crazy how busy you are all the time, with work, church calling, school, and being a good friend and amazing sister at all times! Thanks for always being "on call" for me...it means a lot. I hope, and I know it will happen, that an amazing, handsome, funny, outgoing man will come along and make you the happiest Schmee in the world. And you won't have to "leave" all your happy things in life right now behind...he'll just add to the happy things and just make life different. But better! :) Love you lots
ReplyDeleteI second what your lovely sisters said! I'm so happy that you're happy- and yes, you do have an amazing life with so many opportunities to bless others and enrich your own life. Some lucky young man is going to discover you and just fit right into that mix. Or whisk you away to unknown places....whatever! =) But continue enjoying what you're doing... just keep an open mind and an eye out to meet people. Love you!
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